November 1, 2005
The story of a strange girl..
(This is a post from my previous blog for all of you who’ve never read it. Just a little something about me.)
Let’s see now. Once upon a time there lived a strange girl named Warsha. She never spoke much and her first impression to people was that she was a bit weird and probably a bit dumb. But she wasn’t. She was quite a nice person actually. Just not much of a talker. Yup, the story of me.
Well, for starters I’m not much of a talker as I’ve already mentioned before. That’s why writing is a better way of coming across for me. Those who wish to know bits of me I don’t show, well, this is your chance. People, even my friends, say that i don’t talk much and tend to keep away from the scene of action. It’s true. I’m like that. I can’t help it. I just seek more pleasure in playing audience rather than being in the forefront. Not that I’m shy or scared or have an inferiority complex. If I’m really in the mood for some fun, I’ll be first in line and will be more than happy to take lead. Ok, that doesn’t mean that I’m a boring person otherwise. It’s just a matter of asking me. I’m a pathetic conversation starter. It’s one of my weaknesses. It’s not like I ask anything out of people. Just that they help in starting the conversation. Now is that so hard?
Anyway, enough of me cribbing. But just one question. Is it so hard to believe that I’m a silent person? That I like being silent? That I just dont want to talk sometimes? If you want me to talk, just tell me. That’s all it takes. One word, one question. Again, everyone says I should try to change that. I should learn to talk more. Hello??!!!!! I do talk a lot. Ask the people I talk to on a daily basis. It’s just a matter of bringing up a discussable topic or just some sheer nonsense. I’m up for both. Truth be told, I’ve faced some real bad times in my short life. More than people know. I’ve never spoken about it only coz I know people don’t understand. I’ve tried before. It doesn’t work. Some of my used-to-be-closest friends can’t even accept me for who I am. Hell, they’ve just wiped me off their slate. It’s hardened me and considerably lessened my desire to talk. Coz anything I said was never really listened to or even accepted.
I can say one thing though. Thanks to some people, I have changed and for the better. I am more open about what I feel and not afraid to speak up. All thanks to them. I’m not sure if they’re even aware of how much I’ve changed due to silent motivation from them. Well, I’m always willing to correct my flaws as long as people can point them out to me when I’m not aware of it. I’m not afraid to face the truth or make others face it. After all, its for one’s own good. But can they trust me enough to accept it?
Well, I won’t go too deep into that right now. Maybe I’ll come out with it eventually. Ok, so I guess that should do for today. This is just the start. If some of you find this too philosophical and boring, by all means you can stop reading. But I assure you this is one place you’ll get to know me more than I wish to tell in person. If you like what you read or have an opinion you wish to state, please go ahead and paste a comment. Laterz.
Warshhhh at 10:03 pm
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hey…i guess being a nice quiet person is a lot better than being a dumb chatterbox…n i guess ppl do find it difficult 2 believe tht a person can actually not wanna talk…bcoz 90% of us are born-2-talk!…dun worry abt ppl not being able 2 accept u…mayb they jus neva understood u….u’ll make loads of better frnds :)…n if u think life’s treated u 2 badly…jus look arnd ppl have gone thru worse stuff…bad things jus make u stronger…i heard a saying long back…” wt cannot destroy u…will always make u stronger”….
n u seem 2 have stopped visitin my blog
Comment by: Viveka November 4, 2005 @ 10:06 pm
hey…u know warsh im readin ur blog after such a long time & i know this was long ago but just wanted 2 tell u (tho u know it quite well)dat i will always be there…….u know!!! one look behind &ull find me waiting 2 hold u even if u slip slightly! regarding ur being silent i hav absolutely no probs coz then how’ll i keep yapping????hee hee,neways for those who hav thrown u out of their life dont rally realize what they’ve lost & im glad i found what they left off coz i’ve realized how much u’ve filled up the empty spaces of my life!!!!!!!! so keep smilin’……….coz dat way ur positively influencing sumone’s life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Comment by: supraja November 17, 2005 @ 9:15 pm